the_swiss_miss

the_swiss_miss @ 2008-04-13T19:52:00

2008-04-13T18:22:37Z

Tagged by anchesenanubis
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1.If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
dude.. then id probably call him my ex-lover.

2.What will you do if you do not share the same feelings as the person who likes you?
try to tell them.. but no clue how. thats a quite tough question. and it also depends on the entire situation and everything.

maybe i will ignore the other. dont message back, stuff like that. (i know thats mean, but yeahh..)

3.If you could hang out with someone famous for a day, who would it be?
ashton kutcher.
DUHHH.

4.Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
less confused than excited and nervous. :-D

5.What's your ideal lover like?
gentleman. smart. witty. funny. laid back. romantic. sweet.

6.Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone else?
"The greatest thing you'll ever learn
Is just to Love and be Loved in return"
-moulin rouge.
how true.

7.If the person you like does not accept you, would you continue to wait for them to change their feelings?
i would try to move on because i cant change somebodys feelings, and they dont change if this person is not willing to change them, therefore, moving on is the best thing.
but it has been proved to be hard.

8.If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
first, i would be disappointed.
then i would eat up my frustration.
then i would have to accept it - even though i wouldnt want it.
and last, i would always secretly hope that he breaks up with her.
yupp.

9.Is there anything that has made you unhappy recently?
not directly unhappy, but unsatisfied.
ive been unsatisfied a lot, lately.

10.What do you want most in life?
being happy. more than anything else.
that includes being able to say that i would live my life the same way a second time.

11. In what situations can't you stay cool?
after failing.
like, not getting what i wanted (and worked my butt off), when people are mean and unfair.
and when people are just being bitchy and stupid. cant stand that.

12.Put your iPod/media player/whatever on shuffle. List the first five songs that come up.
- Tegan&Sara: War inside of me
- ABBA: Take a chance on me
- Rent: Seasons of Love
- Red Hot Chilli Peppers: On Mercury
- Firewater: Weird To Be Back
- Queen: Bohemian Rhapsody
- Train: Drops of Jupiter
- Grease: Greased Lightning

ok that is too much. but it was fun.

13.Who is currently the most important person to you?
tough call.
i really dont know.

14.What kind of person do you think I am?
i hate using swiss in these, but:

"chibi, i bi toll."

15.Would you rather be single and rich or married and poor?
neither. :-D

16.If the person you secretly like cannot recognize you, what would you do/how would you react?
recognize as in when we'd meet he wouldnt know who i was anymore?
well, then id probably make him remember me the next time. :-D

17.Would you give your all in a relationship?
yes.
DUH.

18.If you fall in love with two persons simultaneously, who would you pick?
i hope this wont happen, because i really dont know.
but generally, id probably pick the one that picks me, too.

19.What type of friends do you like?
accepting, fun and open friends.
people that i can talk about everything, about sophisticated themes as well as about nothing.
people that i can trust entirely and that accept me.
and smart friends i love smart and witty people.

20. Whats your method of being happy?
see, im automatically happy when surrounded by people. not even kidding.

and for all the other times, theres chocolate.
self-explanatory.

tagging people.. mmmhh... no. whoever feels tagged, be tagged.
(thats my way of admitting that i have not enough friends on here.. and that im not on livejournal all that often to check whether you've reposted it.)

but basically, i tag:

8 people that want to feel tagged. :-D

the best possible world.

2007-12-29T16:10:17Z

the best possible world.

for my French exams, im reading 'Candide - or optimism' by Voltaire.
it is by far the most abstract novel ive ever read. but it does feature some thoughts of a wise man:

the main theme of the novel is optimism. one of the protagonists, Pangloss, is a philosopher. his philosophy is that we live in the best possible world, that everything is exactly the best possible way and that everything was created for the best possible purpose.

if that sounds familiar, yes, its a very obvious (and very satirical) reference to the German philosopher Leibniz, who actually believed that - and was made fun of because of it.

although Leibniz's theory was mocked and generally disapproved, it made me think.

what is the best possible world? and from whose point of view are we preceiving the best possible world? is it from mankind's point of view? or from an animal's?

if this is the best world, why does it constantly get better? for example, science has improved living standards by much. thanks to medicine, we get to live almost twice as long as we did 150 years ago, and the infant death rate is declining continuously. this all sounds perfect, but Leibniz (and Voltaire) both lived many generations ago.
so what happened to their best world?

if the world Leibniz described as the best - the world as it was when he lived - was actually the best possible world, does that imply that the world we live in now is getting worse? does it mean that we actually arent improving our lives with advancing science and resources? is what we find "better" actually "worse'?

at some point i must agree with it. never before our time was a threat of immediate distruction of the entire world population. never before has mankind held so much power over nature and over each other, and never before have we lived in such a distinct world hierarchy.
with more knowledge and the want of more knowledge, we advance quickly to the point at which we will actually control everything. and the thing is, its not everybody that will have the same power. it will be - or already is - one or a small group of people that hold most of the power, and a large group of people who are inferior to them, hoping that this small and powerful group of people wont make any stupid decisions.

after all, what i find weird about that is that i actually like our world, and i believe that for the time right now, it is the best world possible.

the world - we - are only as good as we want it to be.
and i want it to be the best possible.

the_swiss_miss @ 2007-09-02T19:31:00

2007-09-02T17:47:42Z

i am so tired.

the "miststock festival" was this weekend.

i was there only saturday night, because friday i stayed home sick. yay. its the rule here; if you skip school because of sick, then you're not gonna go anywhere later on. in the evening it got really bad, i began to throw up and had high temperature..

saturday i was feeling absolutely fine, yet a little embarrassed because i totally thought that 8.45 means quarter to eight and i have enough time to get to the CAE course in time. obviously, i was late.. like, 40 minutes.

after CAE course i met up with nicole h. to get the apocalyptica tickets.. gosh im sooo excited to see them live in concert.. it's my very first "real" concert and it's gonna be awesome. :-D

later in the afternoon i packed my sleeping bag, some stuff and our tent and headed for the festival.
we got there at about 5 o'clock, put up our tent and just sort of looked around, till we got called into the kitchen at six and stayed there till 10. eveline was selling the food to the people and i was cooking the "crèpes" and some other stuff. 'twas pretty neat. at ten we decided to leave for thun and got there at 11. we sought our friends, but only found marius. on the other hand, we were found by two unknown guys, who seemed nice and cool and therefore we took them back with us to the mist stock. oh, because they couldn't figure out when their train'd leave to go back to bern, we missed our last train and had to call eveline's sister to pick us up. once we got back at about 1am, we just sort of hung out there until 4 or 5 or so, till we got back in our tents to get some sleep. it was cold and hard and uncomfortable. i think i fell asleep at about 6, and woke up again at 7.30. eveline and i got up, prepared some tea and just hung out with the other people that camped there and one after another appeared from their tents.. 'twas interesting to watch them come out, they sort of looked like little chicken leaving their eggs.
we took down the tent, packed all the stuff together and finally left at about 12. i got back here at 1.30 and stayed.

and i'm tired.

really tired.

it was so much fun, we met some really cool people. :-D

yay.

wow, what an interesting and catchy entry.

the_swiss_miss @ 2007-08-09T17:47:00

2007-08-09T15:51:55Z

break's almost over.

geography FINAL exams on the very first day of school. yay.
i didnt even read half of it yet.
stress?
sunday no studying but taking a break?
tomorrow picking up some equadorian boy at the airport, morning over??
tomorrow evening buskers in bern and i really want to go see that?
saturday busy day anyway?

oh man.

like, 128 days left till christmas break starts for me. :-D

life's good

2007-06-24T18:18:29Z

dont you know that feeling of everthing being perfect, even tho its not perfect if you'd take a closer look?

well, right now im happy with a distant glance at everything and how it seems perfect.

it even seems perfect from where i stand, right in the middle of it all with a really really close look at everything.

right now, everything is perfect.

today i went for a walk. i realized how beautiful it is to be alive, how nice the trees smell, how happily and loudly the birds sing. how green everything is where we are and how perfect it actually is. i forget a lot about how good things actually are, and even if i try to be as optimistic as possible i dont always succeed. life is good. whoever created us must have had good intentions. i love life. yes, it is a struggle sometimes. yes, there might be hard times and yes, life usually turns its back to you then when you think its the best. i strongly believe that after every dark hour, there will be more hours of light and happiness. you may call me gullible and naive, thats ok. but why is it so hard to see the good side of everything? why do i forget about everything i have and just focus on the negative aspects? i guess im not supposed to know or to understand. its a secret to everybody, and we are not to know this secret.

life is good. =)

THE PODCAST

2007-06-19T10:42:56Z

my friend eveline and i opened a podcast.. its name is eveline squared and we need listeners.

its in english, its weird, but funny.
go listen to it.

the link:

www.evelinesquared.podshow.com

we appreciate comments and stuff!!

oh and:

i got the ticket. ill arrive the 15th of december at around 8pm. =) yay.

i just thought..

2007-04-15T17:59:12Z

..life's beautiful.

ive probably been the happiest person for the past 2 weeks. everything was fine, fun, everything actually worked out just the way i wanted it to.
my school grade average is around 1/2 mark (=8%) higher than it was last semester.
sure i dont have the 4.0 GPA as i did at THS (which was pretty much awesome.. considering i was in FST and french 4 lol) but i know that if i continue this way, ill easily get through the next school year.

sadly..
our seniors have only 3 more weeks of school. i love these people so much, spent all these awesome moments with them and i am really going to miss them.
luckily..
there's soo many awesome people in my new grade, esp. the ones in my class. kids, you are crazy as hell, but i love you just for that. =) (i know that probably none of them reads that, but w/e)

dad's shoulder surgery heals quite quickly and positively. opposite to that, mom's broken leg only heals very slowly and exhausts the whole family.

my matura paper is nowhere yet, i have no clue about nothing, to be honest. yay.

uuhhh.. yeah.

OOHH I WILL BE BACK!!
IF EVERYTHING WORKS OUT AS PLANNED, ILL TAKE THE WEEK BEFORE CHRISTMASS OFF SCHOOL AND COME BACK THE 15TH OR 16TH OF DECEMBER.

now i just need 600bucks and get my airplane ticket asap. =)

yfu kids are awesome.

2007-03-18T19:35:22Z

we had a yfu-meeting in switz. it was the spring workshop.
altho we worked our butts off (seriously, who gets up at 8am on sundays to talk about homecalls?!) and didnt sleep a lot (5 hours on friday night, 5.5 on saturday night), it was sooo frickin hilarious.

these kids are crazy.
just as crazy as i am, i guess. but man.. crazy people can be so much fun.

(thats why i like school, lol).

with whom else would you play the chocolate game at midnight if not with 10ish yfu-kids of age 18-25?

nevertheless, i got sick. today after we departed i got these cramps like i get them once a month usually, and then i ate some painkillers. without eating anything before. what happens? i get all dizzy, and my stomach begins to make summersaults. then we had to ride that mini-train-thingy, without fresh air. does it surprise anybody that i spent the following 15 minutes throwing up? then i felt better, but noooo. arrived in bern, probably like one hour later, the same thing again (except no small train-thingy and no more painkillers.) what happens? i throw up again. yay.
then i spent the next 25 minutes sleeping in the train. i never EVER sleep in trains. but it was fun.

annnddd.. after i got home, i ate some more chocolate, since this weekend was the weekend of sins for lenzi and me.

and now.. 2 more chocolate-free weeks till easter. thats gonna be a tough time.

well, i had my fun.

i always do. =)

i wonder..

2006-12-20T20:16:12Z

yeah.
boys suck, i just figured that the other day.
you never know what you have and what you'll get.
what he thinks and what he feels.
why he behaves the way he behaves.
why one day he's your best friend,
and the next day he ignores you.
some days he's hugable and some days not.
some guys are hugable and some guys not.
and usually the ones you want to hug arent.
he cant just say what he means.
he used to trust you with their life.
and no he doesnt tell you anything anymore.
he can make you feel miserable.
but yet you still like him too much to not-care.
he can be mean and say mean stuff
without actually meaning it.
or does he actually mean it?
he can jump around on your feelings,
but as soon as you do the same thing, he gets hurt easily.
he is macho infront of his "buddies"
but not all that cool once youre alone with him.
he gets jealous when you talk with another guy
or about another guy
and then ignores you,
but would never admit that he is jealous.
he gets on your nerves because he says dumb stuff.
he is complicated and stubborn
and self-centered
but you would never tell them how annoying he is.
he says that everything he does is the best thing to do
and says that very convinced.
he generally seems very convinced of himself.
but still he asks you "do you think thats ok?"
he never ever shows what they feel
yet you still exactly know whether he's alright or not
but if you ask, he's always alright.
even though you see his heart cry.
he thinks he is so strong and un-vulnerable.
and yet you think he is fragile.
he tells you that he would help you when youre down
but you doubt that he actually cares, sometimes.
you want him to make the first step towards you,
but you dont give him time to do so
because you think that something should happen now.
he seems so self-secure,
and maybe he is.
but you doubt it.
he seems perfect.
perfect.
and i am not perfect.

is he actually perfect?
do i want him perfect?
or do i want him less perfect because i want to make myself feel better next to him?

do i actually want him?
how much do i want him?

a lot.
and i know i will never get him.

hey.

2006-11-23T12:53:14Z

so, its almost weekend, and ive not been this excited for it in a really long time. last weekend was good, i guess (i watched lost all friday night and saturday i went to a concert, then to bern, then back to thun and then home, with the last train at midnight.

this friday (tomorrow) im tutoring again to get some money for the flight, and saturday im going to a gospel concert, then to my friend's b-day party. its gonna be wild, trust me. =)

yeah..
im really bored. i wouldnt be writing this if i wasnt bored.
im supposed to do physics, and tomorrow we have this huuuuge biology test. so i could study for that too.

hell this blog entry does not have a point.

next saturday is the UN-essay thing. i hope i get the basic topic about what the essay will be soon, maybe tomorrow, so i can prepare myself for it.

ever heard of the Cam-Plant?
its kind of a fascinating plant, actually.

so, im talking nonsense. which is not a good thing to do.

besides that im bored, im doing quite well, school's going alright, people are usually nice. the family is.. well.. ok.
tuesday i overslept, my parents got mad since i promised my dad to never oversleep again till christmas. oh well. shit happenes.

janine's having problems at home, and i wish i could help her, but i kinda cant. which.. well, pulls my mood down, too.

so whats up with you guys??

ciao.

grrr.

2006-11-20T17:04:05Z

some people are just incredibly stubborn.

so, today was a real good day for me.
till in the afternoon our teacher felt like adressing all of us about our grades (yes, its true, right now a whole bunch of us are failing classes.. its bad). thats not what makes me angry.
what really really makes me angry is that all the people were searching the "mistake" at somebody else's, especially the teacher's.
its not the teachers mistake if you dont get the chemistry and dont bother to ask.
its not the french teacher's mistake if you dont learn the vocabulary.
its your own mistake. get the hell over it. study more, or ask during class, what do i know??

people, seriously, its about time that you realize that you go to high school for your own good, not for the teacher.

arrrggghh that pisses me off.

hmm

2006-11-19T21:42:17Z

i really really really really miss the people from the US.
and the people from everywhere else.
especially carlijn.

i wish they could just all come and visit me right now.

i need a hug.

im supposed to study french vocabulary. which makes me miss mrs. asquini and my french 4-ies.

and im really really tired. but if i would go to bed i still probably couldnt sleep.

im rather confused, things with this boy are not working out as they are supposed to be.
or is it normal that we get along well some days and i really believe its gonna work out this time, and then the next day things just incredibly suck again??

hmm.. i guess im not supposed to understand.

news. or not. read yourself.

2006-10-31T17:13:05Z

so, hey, again.

im bored right now, and that might be the reason im writing that thing.. not like anything actually happened here that would be worth mentioning. but whatever.

(notice: right now i could either cook dinner, practice the bass or study physics. myspace is sooo much more important. *sigh*.)

1. school.

schools been kinda good lately, i guess. we've had 7 weeks of school, one week of project week, then 3 weeks of fall break (!!!) and now were back for the second week.

and trust me, the first week after break was hell. a latin and a psychology exam on monday, a chemistry and a music exam on tuesday and a history exam on thursday. well, if i look at it now i guess it wasnt all that bad, but considering the fact that i didnt open one single book (!!!) till sunday, its.. well.. kind of a lot to study. no wonder that i spent almost all night on sunday and monday studying. and you wanna know something real cool? i got a 5 in psychology, and a 5.25 in chemistry (both out of 6 being the best and one being the worst. a 3.75 would be passing.). yeah.

here's to mention that im really glad about these grades because..

..i have a 3.5s in geography, biology and latin now.. all of these are failing. =S

..and the bad grades were written in the time i was not feeling good at all. i know its a bad excuse to just always say "i had a bad day". and i am not saying that i was having bad days in that time, more just like.. the feeling of not being able to focus on anything or to study efficiently. as you might can lead from my swisslandpart1-blog, i had somewhat of a hard time adjusting back to the country which i actually love dearly and call one of my homes, it was just so incredibly hard to realize that switz wasnt the US and that life here is different. to put it that way: i hadnt quite "finished" with the US, and i hadnt realized that i shouldnt be sad about it being over, but happy about the fact that it happened.. does that make any sense at all?

most likely, most of you readers will not be able to understand the things im trying to explain here. maybe its just an exchange student thing.

i never realized and appreciated what i had over there, till it was over. that way it might sound more understandable.

by now, though, i guess im kinda over that "i really wanna go back to the US now" - not that i dont want to go back, but now its ok for me to see that i cant go back immediately.

and- im writing good grades again, im getting up to the level on which i used to be- a somewhat high level.

maybe thats because i have this bet with marius that ill have the higher grade average than him. later on i learned that he's one of these really really smart kids. but hey, isnt that some kind of motivation? i mean, im wayyyy too proud to actually let him win and be better than me. ill kick his butt. =P

school is usually automatically related to the people there. so:

2. people

there's nothing much more to say than: i love these kids.

of course there'll be people that dont like me, and who i dont like that much either, but in my honest opinion i am convinced that its not always about pleasing everybody. and i feel good that way.

the only thing that interests me, though, are the reasons why some people dont like me. like, i dont think i ever did anything bad to them, or at least not intentionally. oh well. c'est la vie.

3. family.

they're alright at the moment. enough said.

we're almost done with the apples, and potatoes are done. so lots of tensions between me and some of my family are disappearing and we're all happier than before.

my brother just recently had his anniversary (one year, you know) with his girlfriend, im happy they have each other.

..exactly these are the moments when i wish i had somebody to lean on, somebody who would tell me they liked me, somebody who would be there for me when needed.

but this time, please somebody a little bit less confusing than last time.

uuhhh.. what else.

the only thing i feel like adding here is:

i love you people. each one of you. and i miss you. a lot.

but switz is quite alright, for now. its almost winter and we're gonna have snow soon so i can go snowboarding soon.. in REAL mountains.. ill have to put up pictures, so you guys see what mountains are. =P lol.

oh and:

if everything works out like planned, ill be back in t-town for christmas 2007 (not this christmas, but next.. so, like, in a year and 2 months.)

i have to save lots of money though, so if anybody should feel like giving a donation, feel free, it would be highly appreciated.

also highly appreciated would be the sending of oreos.

happy halloween, talk to you later.

ps: feel free to leave comments, messages, stuff like that.

i interviewed myself.

2006-08-07T18:10:14Z

so i was bored. and then i interviewed myself. it was fun. look what came out:

so, hey eveline, how're you doin'?
peachy, thank you. just being bored, you know, so i thought i could have some fun with myself, and it seemes promising.. yet today was one of these days that you could just have flushed down the toilet, but by now it kinda got better, i guess..how are you?

im fine, too, thanks. what happened, why was your day so sucky?
well, look, i had a dentist appointment at 7.45am, which meant i had to get up wayy too early, and i never am happy when i have to get up that early. then i got yelled at from my mom cuz my room is kind of a mess, so i started cleaning, but im not really progressing. but whatever. its just one of those days today, you know. i am really homesick for america, and yeah.. its just not going too good. but as i said, it all got better.. lets talk about something different, though, ok?

what i was wondering for a really long time.. you spell your name Gfeller. but how do you actually pronounce it?
its a gf. theres no vowel there, just like gf. then its like.. gf-elle-r. but not gefeller. there is nothing inbetween the g and f.

how does it feel to be back in swissland?
its nice, yet really weird. but i guess im somewhat glad to be back, now everything is like it used to be and stuff. i really miss america and my people there, but its not that far away, actually.

when do you start school?
haha lol. thanks for asking. next monday (the fourteenth).

how do you feel about that?
im excited, yet nervous and not excited at all. i know, it does not make any sense at all, but thats pretty much how it is. one one side, im not gonna be bored again, so thats good, and i get to learn a bit. yeah i know. but at the same time, im gonna be with all new people, of which i only know a couple and that makes me nervous. then i also noticed that therere about 100 pages in each of the italian and french vocab books that need to be re-studied, and a lot of latin and english as well. just.. too much to do.

did you see any of your friends yet?
yeah, i saw most of them. the very first evening i got home i went out for about.. maybe..3 hours and most of them came as well. it was really sweet, and there i realized how much i missed these people. then after that on monday there was a beach party to which i went and saw some more of them, then ive been to the city a couple times and saw people there, and also last saturday i was to some other little party from some hockey team and there were a lot of used-to-be-class mates, to which i didnt really talk, but still liked to see again. and i saw this kid who i havent seen in.. like, 5 years. and he has changed. a lot.

that sounds like youre a party girl...
(laughs) hahaha no.. well.. maybe a little bit. but not that bad. =) i just like socializing.

how do you keep in touch with american friends now?
umm, we have myspace and livejournal, but then also AIM or msn messenger, on which im on pretty much 24-7. then i called over there a couple times. it was sweet.

so you travelled a little bit immediately before you went home. how did that go?
well, once we left t-town on thursday, we went towards canada, niagara falls, then toronto and then we visited some friends of my godmother in ontario, almost by montreal. after that we drove thru quebec to new hampshire to maine, and spent a couple days at the east coast at the sea. it was amazing. after that we went to NYC for 4 days then we flew back from NYC to DC to zurich.

what do you miss the most about or from the US?
thats a good question. first, of course, the families and friends. but then also little things, like, getting rides to everywhere, or being able to ride the bike to friend's houses cuz everybody lives so close. but then i also miss oreos, and other foods, such as bagels or subway or stuff like that.

how was it to get back?
it was good and not-so-good at the same moment, like, bittersweet. i dreamed of that for so long and then -bam, it was over. but at the same time it was awesome cuz i finally felt like at home again.

did you cry?
no, not until my dad asked me whether i liked being back. so yes. i did cry.

how about the jetlag?
well it was kinda weird, like, i immediately started partying which wasnt very supportive to get rid of it, but i guess i dont have it anymore. plus i caught a cold so im tired all the time anyways.

what kinda music do you like?
oh, about everything. just.. i dont like these punk-screamo bands. they give me a headache. and im not that big a fan of hiphop either. and techno-trance neither. just the regular stuff, ya know.

what is your favorite website?
umm.. thats a good question. im a lot on myspace or livejournal, but also on partyguide, which is kind of an swiss equivallent to myspace, only that it also has a calender with events in it. then, of course, hotmail, to write emails to guys that wont write back.

what did you miss the most about swissland?
chocolate, to be honest. its the best kind here. =)

what should you be doing in this very moment?
thats a good question. maybe socializing with one of our used-to-be-apprentices, who came for a visit, or studying one of the languages, or repairing the bike, or finishing cleaning so that i have a bed to sleep in.

cleaning? what was the funniest thing you found?
(laughs) hahaha i like that question. there were a lot of interesting things, like, many many pictures of me when i was like..12 and stuff we learned in 7th grade and i already forgot it, and bajillions of memories.

what does swiss music sound like?
you mean, other than yodeling? pretty much like american music.. just.. swisser.

whatcha gonna do now?
one of the things im supposed to do.. most likely the socializing one, since that kid's a good friend of mine.

what annoys you the most at the moment?
people that just yell at everybody, and people that dont write back on AIM/MSN. or emails. and people that dont have to learn the fucking language stuff.

do you regret taking so many languages?
no, not a little bit. it IS a lot of work, of course, but i like it.

what do you want to say as a last tipp or so?
umm.. therere a couple things.
- dont go to quebec. they dont speak french there; they speak french with a sore throat. its NOT understandable.
- umm.. i forgot what the other things were. whatever. that might have been it. (laughs)

hey, thanks for that interview. have a good time and talk to you later, ok?
thank you. i had a lot of fun, and i hope i could tell you something you didnt know yet.

-eveline gfeller.

a little update.

2006-08-07T17:34:52Z

so.

im back. in switzerland. since last thursday. and i didnt even have time to like, update that thing about whats going on over here. (not that anybody would ever read it but ya know..)

thursday:
we arrived at zurich airport at 8.15 in the morning, which mean, my inner clock was at about.. 2am. so then we got our luggage, and walked towards the door, while this creepy guy still looked at me. he was REALLY creepy, trust me. well, i accidentally bumped into him when i went to the bathroom in the plane, but thats no reason to give looks, right?
so when we arrived at the main gate, we saw my sisters with my brother's swiss flag, and they put "welcome back, evi" on it and it was really cute. but then i noticed that the baby (shes 4 years younger than i am) had grown soo much that shes taller than me now. but no, shes not just tall, shes also super-skinny. sweet, so now i feel even fatter.
anyways. after a 2 hour car ride we arrived here and i was totally tired. but then i saw my brother again and that made me really happy. it was good to see them all again and then we were just sitting outside for a while and talk and doing nothing. then i went inside to see the house, and thats when i saw the doggy, cindy. she had puppies last september and after that, she got fixed. anyway, i think everybody had pity with her and fed her goodies all the time, so she got quite fat. but it looks kinda cute, you know. shes a bernese mountain dog, and now she looks more like a dog, like, less elegant, but still cute. so anyways. i kinda got used to be at home anymore, and after we ate lunch (fishsticks and potatoes; like, my favorite food in the world), i began to unpack.. or at least i pretended to unpack so that id have my time to just relax and read my sister's wendy-s. then i checked my email, and called nicole, just to talk a little. it was cool to hear your best friend's voice after you havent heard it in so long. then we decided wed catch the train at 7.43 to go to thun to chill and so i could see a couple of friends- plus, this kid marius ive been talking to on msn for a really long time, said hed come with his friend too, so i was even more pumped than i was anyways. they came and they all looked still the same. he (marius) came with his friend tom. they both seem to be nice, maybe a little bit crazy.. but im excited to be in a class with both of them for the next two years, and as they say, i fit in perfectly. at about.. 1130 we took the train back and then i FINALLY went to sleep in my own bed.

friday, to be honest, was pretty unspectacular. most of the day i spent either sleeping, reading wendy or another magazin, doing some unpacking, or sitting in front of the computer, talking to people on msn, or uploading pictures. i also met my brother's girlfriend, the one he has now since.. last september, but ive never met her before. shes really nice and smart and she is cool. i went to bed quite early, after i started a movie at about 10 (yes ive been talking to him.). so this movie was really cute, but then i was tired. as in really tired. so i went to bed.

saturday my sis woke me up wayy to early to get ready cuz she wanted to go to the store to get a cell phone.. and since i wanted one too, i got up as well. so we did some chores, and after lunch we went to thun (yes, ive been there on thursday already. =)) so i got my new cell and stuff, and i was gonna go to the place where they make portrait pictures but a demo was going on so we didnt want to go. but it was still fun. then i got home and later that night i was talking to this marius dude again, and i was complaining how i have the new cell now but nobody ever writes texts. so he sent me one. it was cool of him. i got my first text. and was happy.

thats how far i got about updating.
i know i suck.

maybe later more.

well, i can tell you now, actually. its been boring. like, more boring than the boringest youve ever had. ive been to some parties and got soaked every single time. but its always been fun, ive missed it a lot.
the weather isnt too good anyways. it rains like, every day, and my dad is mad about that, since he wants to dig out the potatoes but for that it needs to be dry.
sucks ass.

but i like it. =)

swissland tomorrow.

2006-07-26T01:59:56Z

yeah thats pretty much it.

to the people i said i'd call: tomorrow between 2 and 6. have your phones ready. =)

it's weird. i dont really wanna go. honestly. but i guess i have no choice.

whatever.

bye. love you.

see ya soon.

life is definitely NOT a cookie.

2006-07-10T19:27:18Z

so you know, it's monday. but not just a regular monday, no its the monday when my real biological mom and my real god mother arrive. tonight at 7. i am soo pumped, but kinda sad at the sime time.. so i'm being cool and packing my stuff altogether and yeah, i just dont really get anywhere. gotta wait till laundry is done and everything. so i decided to read in my diary for a little while (which- for some awkward reason only has like.. 20 entries from a whole year.. yeah, in the beginning i wrote in it like every day, then i didnt, then i did over christmas, and thats about it.nice, huh? so anyways. i read my very first entry. it says:

so i'm here now. it's almost midnight and i'm really really tired, i just want to sleep. but i cant. i can not believe that i really left switzerland and that i'm supposed to live in the US for a year. right now it feels more like vacation, like i'm gonna go home soon after that and go back to school there. it just feels really awkward, to be at a place that i dont really know anybody and i dont speak their language and anything. i'm scared of what will come. but at the same time i'm more than sure that this will be my opportunity to make the best out of it and it woll not always be easy but it will be worth it. we'll see. (august 10th, 2005.)

now, a couple (16 days actually) before leaving, i can just totally agree with what i've written earlier. yes, it was fairly scary, and yes, it was a great opportunity. i've learned so incredibly much and i can not believe that it's about to be over so soon. it's crazy how fast time goes by. but i'm thankful for everything, more thankful than i've ever been before.. more thankful than i could ever put in words, so i wont even try.

about him. so yeah. my scab-wound was open again. and it's healing, unbelievably fast. it's like.. i cant explain it to myself. we hung out, we had fun, i thought this was the last time i saw him then, but then i saw him the next day as well. i'm glad that nothing happened, it would've hurt more than it does anyway. but i'm still kinda.. blah-ed at myself for not doing anything. it's just.. you know.. a weird life. and it goes on and on and on and even weirder things happen/ happened that i dont feel like mentioning in this text here. it's just.. boys are weird. but i guess.. yeah. nevermind.

i was gonna put something more, but i kinda forgot what it was. oh, yeah: i'm gonna be around in trenton till like.. thursday morning, so if you feel like giving me a call, you might want to do that, it would definitely make me happy.

so yeah. enough for now.
by the way, i'll keep this lj; maybe i find some time and a computer on our little trip to the niagara falls, toronto and chesterville or NYC, but most likely i wont. then i'll update once i get back to swissland, which will be the 27th of july.
i'm excited for going back.

blah airplanes.

2006-07-04T04:18:53Z

so there's this thai game.
every airplane you see, you "catch" between your index and middle finger (just as the peace sign), you count it, and once you arrive at 200, you can make a wish. but if you "catch" a helicopter, you gotta start over.
i'm at 105 airplanes. and most of them were from today. i like being around airports.

lately, a lot of things have been weird- i have been weird. it's been great days and lots of fun and everything but i still can not feel the complete satisfaction- it's like there was a part of it all missing.

it's one of those days, again, today. i had an incredible amount of fun today, but now, after it's over i feel just kinda.. empty.

one more week. =/ shit.
dont you ever have these momenst when you just go back in time and correct your mistakes, like, the lots of mistakes you made. well. kinda impossible. kinda.. disappointing. oh well. i once swore myself to never ever regret the things i did and i.. well.. yeah. you know.

i thought i'd be better if i'd not see him again before i leave. it seemed to be so.. easy, i seemed to be done with the whole chapter that's dedicated to him in my book of life, but i guess i was wrong. well, he called. i called back, he stoped by, just for a few seconds. it was enough
i guess, to put it in symbols, like, then our story was a wound, and me thinking how i'm done with him was like a scab. this scab is gone, he just scratched it away as i saw him. no, i'd never admit it to myself or anybody, but i guess i still kinda like him. it just doesnt have neither reality nor future. i hate falling for kids and then never get what you want- but i hate it even more when i know that i had chances and didnt take them. man. one of the many mistakes mentioned above.

people seem to get hurt so easily, and i'm just one of them.

but honestly, its just life. life wouldnt make sense if there werent any aches or wounds; life wouldnt be fun if it were easy. life is something you have to live with; but yet youre still in charge to make the best out of it- or you'll regret it, just as i do now. i know i can do better. thats what bothers me. it's like getting an A- on a test; it's good, but i know that i could've done better.

whatever.

packing is depressing.

2006-06-28T21:02:17Z

so out of a good mood i pulled my two suitcases out of my closet, with the intention to see what fits in there and then actually leave the stuff in there that i wont wear anymore in the last couple weeks. so i did that. and - with all the important stuff NOT being in them- the suitcases are already full.

now i just kinda have no clue where to put the stuff i'm gonna wear over the time.

i hope my mom will bring only one suitcase and then we can go and get a 3rd one for me that she will take. it's dumb. i got so much stuff whithin the last 11 months. i already sent 2 big boxes and a bag with all books home, but i still have wayy too much stuff.

its crazy. and i can only put 50 pounds in each suitcase!!! 50 pounds.

life sucks.

the black jelly beans are in my trashbin now. too bad that nobody wanted them. bye-bye black jelly beans.

i'm going to downtown trenton tonight to hang out there.. yay!!!

it's like the 2nd last wednesday that we do that. sad, sad.

oh and...

2006-06-27T15:09:40Z

i lied. its not the endorphins in chocolate that make you happy, it's some amino acid called tryptophan that produces Serotonin, which is what actually amkes you happy. but even scientist dont exactly know (yet). so it might be the endorphins, after all. i dont know.

fact is: chocolate makes you happy!!

here the whole article:

Wieso macht Schokolade glücklich?

Wissenschaftlich kann der Gute-Laune-Effekt der Schokolade mit der Serotonin-Hypothese erklärt werden. Der hohe Kohlenhydrat- und Fettgehalt der Süssigkeit führt dazu, dass die Aminosäure Tryptophan vermehrt ins Gehirn strömen kann. Aus ihr entsteht dort Serotonin, ein Botenstoff, der unter anderem für die Befindlichkeit verantwortlich ist. Wird viel Serotonin im Gehirn gebildet, kann sich das positiv auf die Stimmung auswirken. Die These ist momentan aber noch umstritten. Nicht umstritten ist, dass auch Sonnenlicht den Serotoninspiegel im Körper erhöht. Wenn die Serotonin-Hypothese auch wissenschaftlich umstritten ist - über Geschmack lässt sich bekanntlich nicht streiten. Und der stimmt beim süssen Ball. Wer dann noch an die Sonne geht, sich aktiv bewegt und die Kalorien wieder verbraucht, profitiert doppelt.

is it tired-ness or tired-om? or tired-ity?

2006-06-27T13:16:58Z

yeah i'm making up words again.

thanna left this morning, we brought her to the airport. it was sad. i cried. everybody did. but i'm happy for her. really happy. and i'm happy that i've gotten to know her so well.

but as i spent the night at her house last night, we kinda didnt sleep till about 2.30am and had to get back up at. 4.45. which means i'm tired and i'm gone to bed.

and then i get to go to an american dairy farm!!! because.. *drumroll* i've never ever seen a cow before!!! yay!!! (that was sarcasm right there.. for the not knowing, my real dad is a dairy farmer, so i kinda grew up on a dairy farm.)

i'm excited. a lot.

but now i'm gone. to bed.

anybody interesed in buying a bass guitar and an amp? i'm selling mine. let me know, ok?

world cup

2006-06-26T21:21:47Z

it drives me nuts.

damn switzerland, just score a frickin' goal. it cant be THAT hard.

and.. the best part.. we dont have the tv-channel to actually WATCH the game.

it drives me nuts.

all the jelly beans are gone.

2006-06-26T17:42:19Z

they seriously are. have you ever noticed, when you're reading a really good book (such as "deception point" by dan brown), and eat jelly beans at the same time, they get eaten really quickly and you dont even realize it? and then, at the end, you just have a handful of black ones, but no other colors? does anybody even LIKE the black jelly beans? (if yes, i have lots of them and i'll give them to you.)

the last couple days have been good and bad at the same time, i guess. nothing has really been going on and i've been bored a whole bunch of times - luckily i had these books to entertain myself at least a little. and there were some people that actually wanted to hang out with me. =)

i guess i dont care about him in this way anymore. it's a game i can only lose and a thought that has neither reality nor future. it's better to just let go. plus, he's been right with what he said about himself, and people themselves are their best judges. i'm surprised, though, how little i care, after all. i thought it'd be worse, but it's not. maybe because.. i dont know. there're better guys out there. maybe. we'll see.

and i've also learned that, no matter what, there'll always be people that dont like you, because of good reasons or of stupid reasons. but honestly- you dont like everybody either, right? it's just disappointing that people that used to somewhat think good of you, have problems with you know, like they turned 180degrees. but oh well. it's only a couple days till i'm outta here, and honestly, i'm not too sad about not having to care about people like that anymore. well whatever.

i counted it. it's 30 days and 28.5 hours till i'm back in switzerland. i'm excited. really really excited.

but its also sad. look, yeah, ok, a couple things havent worked out too well in the last couple weeks, but there've also been millions of things that couldnt have been any better.. which is kinda sad-ning. (yeah i'm making up words again). it's just.. i'm incredibly scared of losing the people here i really care for, and forgot about how much i like them, while i'm worrying about how much i dont like others. you know what i mean? probably not.

a lot of adults, and also teens, asked me why i decided to come to the US, even though i knew exactly that i would have to re-take 11th grade and this year here doesnt count anything at all. and i couldnt answer them. the only thing i know now that it's definitely worth it, it's more worth than any other experience i've ever made. it made me realize that i can do so many things if i really want to, and that life isnt easy at all, but it also made me realize how much value family, home, or even a simple thing as a language has. it made me realize that there're people out there that care for you and that open their hearts and homes to you- people that dont actually know you. it made me see the good in the world, and it made it much more valuable to me.

i'm sad that it's gonna be over.

yeah i know, i'm pretty much just talking about going home on this lj, but its kind of the thing about which i worry the most.

sorry to annoy you.

yay hyperness.

2006-06-24T05:02:24Z

today has been a really long day.

honestly, who besides erin, cheyla and me, meets at 9 o clock AM to go to tim hortons for breakfast?? nobody. it's just not human. students are not supposed to meet at 9 AM during vacation. non. no. nei. ca ne va pas!

allors. the rest of my day was pretty.. well... i guess i could call it exciting. i went over to the gould's, where i watched switzerland pwning korea and dyed marcie's hair in a redish color- cheyenne didnt like it, i did. it was fun. and.. *drumroll* i got a license plate! tim got it for me and it's a real car license plate from MICHIGAN!! you have no clue how excited i am!!

later on pk and cheyla came over; we watched the boondock saints (was sweet), some of "antz", then the fireworks, then we went to 7-11 to get chocolate. i had one of the moments, you know.. then they pretty much left... it was about.. 11 i guess.

by the way.. why is 7-11 called 7-11? i mean, ok, it's open 7 days, but whats up with the 11? its not the hours, and not the months. i was wondering if it might be that 7-11 is open 7 days a week and in 11 countries.

but my dad just told me that thats wrong. the name comes from the time when 7-11 was open from 7 in the morning to 11 at night- unlike other stores that opened at like.. 8 and closed again at 9.
now i've just learned something new! happy day!!

i cant really say if today is a good day, though..
for some reason i really want to write in french right now. i'm dumb, i know.

aujourd'houi c'etait un de ces jours que les petites choses sont quelles que te font tres furieuse. ce que je veux dire c'est qu'il n'a pas fait aucune chose. c'est moi, c'est toute ma faute. je n'aurais pas du etre si stupide de tomber amoureuse quelques semaines avant ma departure, c'etait la chose la plus stupide de faire. mais.. finalement, je ne peux pas changer le passe et tout de ce que s'est passe s'est passe pour une raison.. c'est ca dont je believe. la vie n'est pas tres simple, mais la partie la plus amusante de la vie est de devenir plus inteligente de ca que s'est passe.
ca n'est pas mon point le plus important.
ca que je veux dire c'est que je suis un petit peu desole encore pour ca qu'il a fait. et aujourd' houi nous avions cette petite conversation comme je le deteste ou comme je ne le deteste pas (oui, la conversation etait avec lui), et je l'ai demande qu'il y a une raison dont je dois etre furieuse, et il disait "non.". ca m'a fait mal; parce que allors je ne sais pas qu'il sait comme je l'aime (a une manere d'amitie, pas l'amour romanitque), ou il n'a aucune idee come je sens de les choses qu'il fait.
c'est tres difficile pour comprendre, et j'aime bien le comprendre moi-meme.

my french sucks condsidering that i had 7 years of it. man. i gotta improve. a lot. or i'll die next year. dangit.

so yeah.. i just had some sweet convos with my dad about friendship bread, d-day, licensplates and the bicentoilarium of the US (which was in 1976.. hehehee) (kinda interessting; this country is 200something year old.. "mine" is something over 700years old.) swissland was founded when nobody even knew about a counrty, no, a continent like the americas.. how does that make you feel?

ok. thats enough. i dont have any plans for tomorrow yet (besides sleeping till.. long). yay weekend!!

i hope one day i'll reach enlightment.

how random. oh well.

alright. thats it. love you, bye.

i. need. more. chocolate.

2006-06-22T22:38:01Z

so i had these hershey hugs earlier today, but they're not satisfying. aarrghh.

and i know EXACTLY that i got some of the good chocolate stuff from kaye for my birthday, but i'm unable to find it... aaarrggghh..

the swiss = not happy.